the no nursing woes

i am short 44 hours a week nursing for estie, its been very hard , between trying to visit zeke go to doctor visits and take care of estie,, i am not getting much done had a big melt down today yelled at all my waiver workers that they needed to start cleaning or i would get rid of them. i know it was not very nice but true, if they worked anywhere else they would have to clean up. i am very tired. We saw a nerologist for estie yesterday he did a EMG, very painful, on her. said she does not have a muscle disease but a neropathy of the axion, not sure what type yet he did some blood work and we will see what that comes out.